If you're reading this, most likely you know I am a stay at home mom. Dustin and I agreed before I was even pregnant that I would stay home with our kids because we didn't want other people raising our kids. We knew there would be sacrifices and that money would be tight. It's been rough, very rough at times. Sometimes I wonder how we manage to survive. We have a nice home and decent vehicles to drive. There's always food to eat and our house is warm. We have all the things we need. Unfortunately, we also have debt, and quite a bit of it. It's hard to stay afloat in this economy, and while Dustin's job doesn't seem to be in any immediate danger, it's a little frightening to think of what could happen.
So now I'm thinking of returning to work. I never had the intention of staying home forever, but it is a little earlier than I had planned. I would like both boys to be in school so they wouldn't have to be in daycare at all. But for some reason, I'm kind of getting the feeling that this might be the right time.
Assuming I find a job (something in the school system is what I have in mind), this is going to be really hard on me. This is the only way that the boys and I know. I know Nathan would be fine in daycare, and he'd only have to go for a few hours in the afternoon. I am a little worried about Matthew. He's two and a half, and very shy. I think he'd be okay for a half day, but a whole day is going to be a lot for him to handle. It would certainly be nice if I could find something part time that would pay enough to pay daycare and still have enough left over to make it worthwhile.
This is something I would appreciate your prayers about. It's not a decision I want to take lightly and I would really like the Lord's guidance in this. I have always felt that my purpose in life was to be the mother of Nathan and Matthew and to always put them first. I still feel this way, but wonder if it's worth digging ourselves further and further into debt. I know I can still be a good parent and a working parent, many people do, but I just hoped I wouldn't have to make this decision for awhile yet. Please keep me in your prayers. I will be sure to let you know how this plays out. Thanks.
10 years ago
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I will keep you in my prayers. I know its a tough decision! Sometimes I go back and forth about having a part-time job when Jeff comes home. His work is not very stable at this point and that makes it rough sometimes. Whatever you choose to do will be the right decision! :)
That is a hard decision. There are times that I feel so guilty that I am sitting at home in my pjs while Josh is working 26hrs a day and I feel like I need to go out and do something!
And honestly, there are times that I do want to work so I can have some adult conversation :).
I think you just need to do what is best for you. Add up the cost or childcare compared to what you think you'll be making. Think about your kids and see if they can handle it (sounds like you are already doing that..) and just pray!
I'll be thinking and praying for you!
(Good Lord that was long!)
Thanks for the thoughts and prayers ladies!
It's hard!! I wanted to stay home too but being there for your kids is one thing BUT giving your kids a stable enviroment is another. I hope that God gives you direction and the knowledge to do what is best for you. Miss you!!!
Thank you Chris! I feel very lucky to have been able to make it so far, but I think my luck is running out. I know I just need to be thankful for the time I've been able to do it. Plus, I plan on trying to get in at the school, so I'll still have summers off! I really would have liked to wait another year or two. BUT...if we get caught up a little, maybe we can try for that girl, lol!
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